My Menstrual Story (so far)
Hannah Rose Tristram
To cut a long story short, I was on the pill aged 15 – 19, and had great fluctuations in bodyweight during my teenage years. During this time I also lived a stressful inner and outer lifestyle. When I came off the pill aged 19, I had no bleeds of any kind until, aged 25 I went on it again briefly for a few months, under the (very unhelpful and downright harmful) advice of the NHS. Deciding that I was going to follow my intuition, and not follow any advice that jarred with my instincts, I came off the pill. I began to search for and create a path to menstrual health that made sense to me, and would actually help me rebalance my system on every level, rather than covering up the problem and creating further imbalance as the pill was doing. I made changes to my diet and thinking about food, and began to restore my digestive health from some IBS issues. I maintained my daily yoga practice, whilst also relaxing my attitudes about it. I received treatments in acupuncture, shiatsu and reflexology. I said ‘no’ more and rested more, incorporating more downtime and becoming more practised at speaking what I actually need, feel and think. I gained a little weight, moving from the lower margins of what might be considered as healthy for my height into the middle margins, and maintained it in a steady fashion. Most crucially, I addressed my thinking about menstruation. I filled in some blanks about the biological workings of it, researched where my judgements about it might have come from, and opened up to receiving its Spiritual and personal benefits, for the life of the soul. Opening up blocked channels inside me to thinking and talking about menstruation at all (having had a mental silence on it as well as a physical one), and to doing so in a positive light, brought up painful memories of life-events which I had suppressed. Processing the emotions associated with these allowed me to let go of inner holdings-on, which unstuck some energies on physical and emotional levels. I also began to chart my mucus and feelings, and pay a little more attention and respect to the female aspects of my body. Shortly after I turned 26, on the first New Moon of 2012, on Chinese New Year (year of the Dragon), my natural menstrual bleed returned, for the first time since I went on the pill aged 15. And this time, I was ready to celebrate.
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